I am angry....

I feel like I cannot remember the last time I was not angry. I am so tired of believing that God will deliver me from this terrible job only to be left disappointed. Why would he leave me here to be in the same place I was assaulted in? The same place that leaves me with no time to spend with my husband or family? The same place that makes me work most nights? The same place that takes my Sundays? The same place that makes it near impossible to pay the bills? The same place that all I want is to be free from? It makes no sense to me! I need help understanding this, and instead all I am left with is anger. I am so hurt, and I hear that there is something I am supposed to learn, to grasp, to hear, and if only I would just get that, I would be able to move on. I have nothing left and I'm tired of advice. If there is something I have missed and am supposed to get, would someone please tell me?! I have never been so disappointed in the Lord, and I know we are not supposed to say that, but I truly feel like this. Where is he?