The Life Raft

I woke up this morning early, really early, on my day off. Normally that would frustrate me, but not today. It was like Christmas, I did not sleep well, I tossed and turned all night, and all because I was finally getting a day with David! I was so sad though, because he ended up having to spend a couple of hours that we were supposed to use sitting by the pool to do his paper. So, I sat there in the warm water with nothing but nature to distract me, and that was when I finally heard God speak to my heart. He has longed for me to get excited about spending time with him, to yearn for him, to stop being angry and just sit with him for so long, and now I had no choice. I just drifted in the pool trying not to think of all the homework I should be doing and then my mind was finally clear, and I realized how long it had been since I had felt clear. My heart had been broken and muddy for so long and now in the silence of a beautiful day I see how easy it would be to hear him if only I would let him move me in the direction he wanted me to go. I had been so busy fighting the current of my life for so long that when I finally let go and give him the reigns it would figure it would happen literally and figuratively. I was laying on the raft being floated in the pool not pushing hard, just hoping to float into direct sunlight, and had I tried to do it myself I would end up chasing the sunlight in circles around the pool, totally exhauated. Yet, when I laid there praying and allowed my mind, soul, and spirit to let go the sun stayed on my and when it left it was never for very long. Today was the most relaxing day I havd had in close to a year. All thanks to God's intentional warmth, sunlight, and freedom to love and be loved. I did end up having an incredible day with David too, we talked for hours about God in that pool floating around together, feeling closer than we had in months.